Sunday, March 4, 2007

Ended Dreams?

I have come to the realization that one possible direction I was considering taking after college is no longer an option.

I've had this crazy dream that one day I would attend law school and eventually become a judge in a juvenile and domestic relations court. At this point, that will never happen.

My current GPA is a 3.27. Last semester it was a 3.54 and I got a Phi Beta Kappa certificate. Currently, I'm no longer in the Honors Program here at school because of my GPA, and I'm terrified that I'm going to lose my scholarship and no longer be able to afford to attend here. I will never be able to raise my GPA above a 3.5 again; in order to do so I'd have to make a 4.0 every semester I have left. My low GPA and the fact that I'm not involved with anything on campus means that I will never get into any law school that is worth anything.

Realizing this hurts. Failing one history class has ruined a dream for me. I only failed that class because I slept through the final exam; I had a B average in the class. Depression and anxiety have cost me so much, and I guess they will continue to ruin my dreams and keep me from living up to my potential.

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