For Lack of Time to Post Anything Better....

I really want to update this more often, and I will try to do that. Lately, however, organizing my photographs has been given priority, so I will post this for the moment.

You Are New York

Cosmopolitan and sophisticated, you enjoy the newest in food, art, and culture. You also appreciate a good amount of grit - and very little shocks you. You're competitive, driven, and very likely to succeed. Famous people from New York: Sarah Michelle Gellar, Tupac Shakur, Woody Allen

What American City Are You?

A Long, Short Day

In the wee hours of this morning, at 3:30 a.m., I got a call from one of my friends. I wasn't upset at all because I was wide awake and up organizing my photos.

She had a fight with her roommate and didn't want to sleep in the same room with her and asked if she could sleep in my room. I said I didn't mind and she came over. We talked until 4:30 a.m., and then turned the lights off in order to sleep. I could not get to sleep. My friend snored really loud, keeping me awake until 6 a.m. when I became too exhausted to be bothered by noise.

I woke up at 10 a.m. to my alarm going off. I was planning to go back to the Hollywood Cemetery and take some more pictures. I decided to go back to sleep, because my friend was still asleep on my floor. I woke up again at 1:30 p.m. with my friend gone. I couldn't believe I had slept so long.

I got up and got ready and headed to the cemetery a lot later than I had planned on. Regardless, I made it to the cemetery around 3:40 p.m. I found a place to park and walked for a good while, finding a few good subjects to photograph. I then got back in my car and went looking for the tall pyramid structure that is a memorial to the Confederate soldiers. I wasn't successful and decided to leave. I was a little disappointed that I didn't get more photos.

When I got back to school, I told another one of my friends, Sara, about my adventure. She told me that she loved going to that cemetery, and to let her know when I was going back, because she wanted to come. This made me really happy, as I hardly ever have people that want to go out and take pictures.

Ended Dreams?

I have come to the realization that one possible direction I was considering taking after college is no longer an option.

I've had this crazy dream that one day I would attend law school and eventually become a judge in a juvenile and domestic relations court. At this point, that will never happen.

My current GPA is a 3.27. Last semester it was a 3.54 and I got a Phi Beta Kappa certificate. Currently, I'm no longer in the Honors Program here at school because of my GPA, and I'm terrified that I'm going to lose my scholarship and no longer be able to afford to attend here. I will never be able to raise my GPA above a 3.5 again; in order to do so I'd have to make a 4.0 every semester I have left. My low GPA and the fact that I'm not involved with anything on campus means that I will never get into any law school that is worth anything.

Realizing this hurts. Failing one history class has ruined a dream for me. I only failed that class because I slept through the final exam; I had a B average in the class. Depression and anxiety have cost me so much, and I guess they will continue to ruin my dreams and keep me from living up to my potential.